I’ve been smoking a lot more than normal as of late…and when I say smoking I mean tobacco.
I’ve been contemplating on kicking the habit. I mean, I stopped eating meat. I stopped drinking alcohol. I have a rigorous gym schedule that I adhere to no matter what, yet I can’t stop this one habit. It has taken control of me.
For the past two weeks I honestly think I was up to a pack a day – maybe more (for obvious reasons). That is the equivalent to 10-12 cigarettes in a 12 hour period, 20 cigarettes for a 24 hour period. BUT today I think I held back. As much as I tried not to smoke at all, I succumbed to the power of the nicotine. I smoked about six cigarettes since 10 a.m. this morning. I couldn’t take it. I was getting really frustrated and I think I nearly lost it when I was talking to my parents on the phone. I was being irritable and bratty. I was acting like an ass.
I think I did good, but I’d do better if I quit altogether. I actually want to quit. Maybe it’s time I buy the patch.
- Excited
- Fascinated
- Amused
- Bored
- Sad
- Angry
